Draw me close & Hold my heart.

I cannot sleep, I know You're near. I can't hear the sirens or feel the cold, I am drawn to Your whisper in the winds. My world is spinning in a constant whirlwind of chaos and confusion, I feel your stronghold around my back, bracing me so for a steady moment i can see the joy found in Your smile. Whenever I'm alone, You make me feel like I am whole again, for this I will always love you. However long i stand alone You hold tightly to my hand, for this I will always love you. Whatever words I say and whatever groans I feel, I will always love you. 

Your love pours unto me like rain from the clouds, Your words become irritants and inspirations festering inside of my mind until they are proclaimed from my refinished lips so that all the world may hear. I am burning with desire for Your touch, Your home, Your throne. Mold me, make me, break me in half, take my shattered pot and bring me back to life. I rest my head on Your shoulder, as you whisper divine guidance in my ear.

All i need is You... Your in the background of the radio, You reside in my house, in my car, You wait patiently at my door, You guide my footsteps, You are my Ghost. I can't shake you, I can't pull away, i might as well write the words right on my face that all I want is You. I can't hold back what's deep in my soul, You have drowned me in your mercy in love so that it has become irresistible to touch. All my fears creep and crawl across my skin, I want to give up give in, let this one sting and stay where it is. You give me the courage, the grace, and the words to say when I have given it up. Darling, please forgive me.... I want you more than the trees want to grow, and the mountains want the snow. And you hold me in your arms all that I can feel is my future in your hands, all that I can see is how long ever after is. It's all that I can do to be with You, just to be with You.. 

I've become this silent beggar....what I possess sits unused and unwanted, broken and dirty in a metal cart with a squeeky wheel. My belongings remain untouched as they sit silently behind the arch of my spine. I simply cup my filthy crippled hands and extend my arms above my head. My tearful eyes drape upward into the eyes of a merciful savior. He had no part of how I ended up here, dirty, poor and alone, broken and unwanted in the eyes of the world, drunk on pity and shame. I beg for change so I can ease the hunger pains clanging in my gut, but this man offered me life and food for the soul he offered me love, forgiveness, and an eternity in paradise. He gave me, a filthy undeserving beggar, the greatest gift of all, He gave me Christ. 

"if I give all my possesions to feed the the poor, and if I surrender my body to be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing." 1 Cor. 13:3 "if we are not continually growing, speaking, thinking, acting, and reacting in love then we have failed our Lord Jesus in the worst way possible."-wise words.